Okay, So it's my last day being 16. Well nothing so Fantastic but, I guess I see it a bit like a personal New Years Eve. Another chance to Start a fresh.

Alot has happened, I'm sure everyone knows lmfao. Not been a very Private 16th year. But everything is moving on. I'm moving on.

Many people are confused as to what exactly has affected me. I broke up with him. To the outside it can be clean cut. But without knowing the reasons for anything, Nothing can ever be clean cut.

But despite how I felt... Anger, Jealousy, Hatred, Depressed... Keep throwing them at me. Because it's over. Nothing is there except the hint of Resentment for ever knowing you. I look at the photos of us, I read the little things. A few years from now, Like any relationship although ours was a friendship, I'll look back at you and maybe smile for the those little things. But then how can I believe any of those were really ever heart felt? Perhaps I was just convienient? I became your friend to help you in the first place. I'm sure you'll protest; thinking you meant it all. And maybe you did. But what does it matter now?

I'm just another person. If I've moved on, I'm sure you have too. Because arn't you always the practical one. If it won't work, you don't try. That's something I learnt. You perfer to wait around to see if it will come back to you.

Disbelief. At my stupidity. Everything you touch.
Ha. I think what really made me laugh was your note of 'Happy Birthday' on Monday, when it wasn't my Birthday. Turning to look at you in eye and say 'It's on Wednesday'.
Maybe I've looked too deep into but still, It gave me a good giggle.

Anyway enough of all that. It's time for positivity.

Well that was.. A nice change. He just called me. I guess the friendship isn't just one way. This gives hope :). They have the UCAS trip tomorrow which is a bit of a shame, But they will be back for lunch/CAS. So it's all good.

I've eaten so much chocolate and I'm in love with Wilden's present. It's so adorable.

Well... I guess thats that.

I'll wake up tomorrow a digit older (Well I'll still be awake when I turn 17), And I wonder if much will actually change? I mean not immediatly but you know, Perhaps everything that is done is done. I'm happy with that phone call, Start as you mean to go on.

I'll probably post again tomorrow, So if I feel i've missed anything I'll stick it in there.

Sweet dreams all you wonderful wonderful people. Everyone who reads this, Everyone who has ever said 'Stay Strong', and Everyone who has given me a smile. It means alot, and I'm sorry I don't say it more often.