So exams have already started for some and we're warming up for full swing of our exams. I need to start revising properly soon otherwise it will all just be way too late. News wise, I officially have Tonsillitis, or however you spell it. Perfect bloody timing. My head hurts like fuck, my body aches, my temperature is like an old boiler on the blink, not knowing weather to be hot or cold. And of course my tonsils are covered in some white shit and swollen up so I can’t eat or swallow. Ahh brilliant. It’s nice when life comes up to you and kicks you in the hypothetical balls. So now I’m at home knowing i need to revise but instead I have to finally get rid of all the stuff in this room otherwise it isn’t an environment I can work well in. I’ve also been thinking, after the exams are over (yeah, I’m hopeful), there’s gonna be a lot of free time even if I’m going to be seeing people most days. So I’ve decided that I need a new layout for this blog. It’s too depressing. I need something new and fresh, something that represents a new start. Because that’s what it is, isn’t it :). But yeah so I’m forward planning. I’m not looking for to the 3rd week of exams, I have 8 in one week *cries in the corner*. Gets it over and done with? A positive view on it I guess.

But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go through

Hold on... If you feel like letting go
Hold on... It gets better than you know

I’m looking forward to this room being emptied of everything work related. It’s not just two years of work. It’s everything ever since I went to school. And even though it’s really sad it’s all gonna be bagged up and most probably put up into our bottomless pit of an attic, it’s like I’m throwing a big part of my life. I mean think about it, ever since I can remember the reasons for getting up in the morning 5 days of the week was just to go to school. But.. What now? Sure we’re going back to school, but it’s not the same, it’s not compulsory. Maybe I’m just thinking too deeply about it all but it’s not a sad thinking, it’s quite nice. Growing up I guess. So my first exam is tomorrow, I’ll probably end up arriving like an hour early just so I don’t miss it or something lol.

Now my life is changing
It's always rearranging
It's always getting stranger than I thought it ever could
Ever since I found you
I wanna be around you
I wanna get down to the point that I need you

'Cause everybody (a-wha-oh-oh)
Needs someone that they can trust and...
You're somebody (a-wha-oh-oh)
That I found just in time

I still have my leavers shirt just hung over the corner of my bed. I don’t want to put it away with my year 6 one, because then it will be forgotten. That’s another I need to do. Go through my wardrobe and chuck stuff I’ll never wear and things like my uniform that I won’t wear either. Open it for new things, new items, new style? You never know, I might change drastically in those 3 months when I’ll go insane without any work to do. I was talking to my mum, wondering what to do about money. I don’t like just taking form my parents like some kids do. Instead I prefer to do stuff around the house to at least earn it, she suggested a few a things. Walking the dog etc. I can also go down to my work experience place whenever I like :) as long as it isn’t the holiday cos duhh the kids aren’t gonna be there. But yeah that would be nice, helping out. That won’t be paid but it would make a nice change.

I dont ever wanna be like you
I don't wanna do the things you do
I'm never gonna hear the words you say

So I guess it’s back to spring cleaning. Jesus my computers covered in dust. Right this is ridiculous. I’m gonna work really hard and quickly at it so I still have time to revise tomorrow. Hopefully :). So hope you guys aren’t working too hard, and just remember, life may suck, it might look really bad right now but it’s not that big a deal. That sounds harsh, I didn’t mean it like that. But.. I think we all lose perspective of things. It’s rediculous. We over analyse things so much and think about them so much they become really big problems in our minds. And those that say “oh it’s okay, it’s life” that’s *really* not curing the problem, and it’s not putting it into perspective. Get your self out of that pit and say to yourself, *honestly*, “I’ve been thinking too much about it, it’s really not that big a deal”. Persepctive guys. Come on. CURE WORLD ANGST.

If you want me to wait,
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay,
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say,
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering